The Road to Recovery

March 28th, 2010

Lots of things have happened since my last blog.  I thought my recovery was going to be serious down time, HA.  I feel like I’m back in the days before the Olympics.  I start each day with school (love it, never thought I would get back) for 3 hours, then a quick lunch and then off to therapy for 3 hours.  After therapy I try to get in a workout, then homework and rest to get ready for another day.  WOW, my workouts have gotten pretty unique since I can’t use my leg much.  Doing kickboxing, lots of upper body stuff, swimming, two days ago I got to bike for the first time, YES.  One day last week I swam 4 miles.  You should see me, I have this floaty thing that I hold between my knees and then just swim.  My upper body is going to be crazy strong.  My legs, a whole different story.  I feel like my one thigh is like a marshmallow :) .  I can’t wait til I can run again.  I see my surgeon on Monday, I’m praying that I can finally lose my brace and crutches.  Actually, I’ve gotten pretty good on the crutches. You should see me getting through airports and stuff.  I gotta say though, I totally feel for anyone with any kind of a handicap.  Most people are great, but others not so much.  I’ve had airline stewardess’ treat me like a total pain in their butt cause they didn’t know what to do with my crutches, “Miss, you can’t take those on the plane”, like what do they expect me to do with them?  At first I wasn’t supposed to put any pressure at all on my leg so I couldn’t walk without my crutches.  I guess they expected me to hop down the aisle on the plane.  I just keep reminding myself that it could be so much worse, I have to try and keep a sense of humor about it all.  I never dreamed how bad I would miss working out.  When I get better, watch out :) .

I’ll try to run through some of the things that I’ve been up to.  I’ll start with when I was honored with being a godmother to the new cruise ship “Oasis of the Seas”.  I got to go to the christening and sail on it’s maiden voyage.  We only went out overnight and then back in the next day.  The ship is fantastic and I’m so proud that I’ll get to be a part of it’s life for as long as it sails.  I’m hoping to be on it again soon.  I got the huge honor of being a torchbearer.  I passed the Olympic torch on my 18th birthday in Calgary, very special.  Was out in LA for a photo shoot for a magazine, it was for it’s Mother’s Day issue.  Watch a specific “family” magazine :) .  Then I got to go to the Winter Olympics in Vancouver.  I was there working with McDonald’s as their Champion Kids Program ambassador.  While I was in Vancouver, we had the launch of my “Got Milk” campaign.  That was something that I had wanted to be a part of for years.  I still can’t believe it.  THEN, I got back from Vancouver and the next morning I had my surgery.  I was so scared, but was very relieved when I found out the anasteseologist was a friend of our family.  Everything went really good, except I went home with a knee that felt like it belonged to the jolly green giant.  With all of the wrapping and stuff, it was ginormous.  After my surgery, I have been staying close to home and not doing too much travel.  Just last week I did my first speech at a University.  It was USF in Tampa.  I think it went pretty well considering I was so nervous I thought I was going to throw up.  The audience was terrific (about 600 I think) and I got through it okay.  Glad I got that under my belt cause then just night before last I did another one here close to home (around 3000, yikes) and I was nervous all over again.  It was for Girl Scouts of America, what a great organization doing great things for girls (girl power).  Oh, I almost forgot.  Before the torch relay in Calgary, I went to the Cheersport Nationals in Atlanta.  Had the time of my life.  Getting to watch all of those cheerleaders in practice and also in competition was so exciting.  Not lyin’, if it hadn’t of been for my knee I would have gotten out there with them in a heartbeat.  So much fun and such great energy.  Fun sport.  Looking forward to working with cheer more.  
Next?  Well, of course there’s always things in the works and new stuff coming up.  Stinks, cause mostly stuff I can’t talk about yet.  But I will keep you updated as soon as I can.  Not trying to keep secrets, it’s just that a lot of times I can’t talk about things until I’m told that I can.  Oh, plus I am up for the female dancer on Dancing With the Stars “Design a Dance” contest.  My doctor says I would be good to go by then and I would love to get the chance to dance again, so wish me luck.  As always, thank you all so much for your support and all of the good wishes for my health and recovery.  My fans really are the best.  Until next time.
Love, Shawn   


Life can be unpredictable…

February 21st, 2010

Hey everyone-

Just wanted to give you a little insight myself since the media world sometimes has a “unique” way of telling stories. For my birthday this year, i had the extreme pleasure and joy of skiing in Colorado with my closest friends to celebrate my big 18th. While having the time of my life there, finishing up my last run of the day, I took a bad fall. I knew as soon as it happened that something had gone wrong, but kept my hopes up and fingers crossed. I managed to tough out the rest of the trip and still have a blast. When i got home, i went to my doctor just to verify that nothing was wrong – even though i knew something was – and was devastated by the results.

The doctor informed me that i had a slight tear in my acl and meniscus and needed knee surgery. For a girl who has never really had an injury before, this came at me like a brick wall. I wasn’t sure how to handle the news so i did what felt natural. I went straight from the doctor’s office to meet up with Coach Chow. With my eyes full of tears and body language reading defeat, Chow shocked me in his response to the news. He was so comforting, so positive – it was just like old times. He told me things happen for a reason. I am now faced with a challenge that i have never had to face before, at a time in my life that i needed it the most. He told me to look at it as a blessing. I have been stumbling this past year and a half, piled with work and busy with travel – struggling to figure out what it is i want to do with my life and if i want to continue in gymnastics. I could never really feel any clarity – to read what was in my heart – or simply have the time to sit down and listen. Well, now that i’m faced with a road of recovery, i have time. I have time to reflect, time to myself and time to figure out who i am.

The one thing that scared me the most when this happened was that possibly i could not return to gymnastics even if i wanted to. Up until now, i’ve always had that option, so i’ve always been comfortable. The thought that option might be gone killed me!

So hearing Chow say that the option will always be there was music to my ears. He did say it will be much more difficult – not just mentally, but physically as well – to come back to the sport after an injury. It is going to take time and a lot of work, but if i am willing to commit to it, it can be done. Something else he said that really meant a lot to me was that he could still see in my eyes that i had a heart for the sport. Knowing and seeing how devastated i was at the fact i might not be able to return to gymnastics showed him how much the sport really meant to me.

So, as of today, i am 4 days out of surgery, struggling with crutches, tripping over everything, and feeling really weird not being able to walk for the first time, but also feeling comfortable with where i stand. Again, i’m not committing to a comeback of any sort, but i have set up with Chow that gymnastics will definitely be a part of my recovery. It’s a great way to get back in shape and to start figuring things out, along with rehabbing my knee. Things aren’t going to be easy for the next 6 months, but i’m excited to see what comes of all this new time i have on my hands. I have no regrets about going skiing, because i was having the time of my life, and i have nothing but positive thoughts going into recovery. Life is crazy, unexpected and unpredictable. All i can hope is that, along with the love and help of my family, you will be there supporting me in whatever it is i do!

Love, Shawn



First Blog on my New Site!

January 25th, 2010

Hi Everyone!!
I just wanted to take a second and “Thank You” for everything you all have done for me these past few years. I couldn’t have gotten to where i am today without you all and so it means the world to me that each and every one of you have continually supported me in seeing my dreams come true. As i have learned through the years, it’s not all about the talent or the drive, it’s about the world you place yourself in and those that surround you that really push you to become your best. So with that i sincerely “Thank You” for your support, love, and inspiration you have given me.
   
Most recently though… I, with the help of my closest and most talented friends, have been able to give you all a new way of keeping up with me first hand and staying close to me through everything. As a new chapter of my life unfolds i thought it only appropriate to change things up a bit everywhere else as well. This new website is something i’m very excited to be sharing and hope you all pass around and enjoy as well. There are some great new features to it that are contemporary and promise to keep you as “in-the-know” as possible!!! With up loadable flip video features, and an instant up to date twitter log there is a lot of stuff on here that i think you will like. With a lot of new and exciting things coming my way i wanted a very personal way to keep you all informed on every little detail.
 
And with that… i hope you all take a look around, enjoy, and inform me on anything because YOU are the reason we built this. :) Keep in touch and i will keep you close!!

Love,
Shawn Johnson <3